I don’t know about you, but growing up those subtle and not so subtle words and actions, ads and experiences that make you think perfection is required. You feel like if you are going to fail at something you shouldn’t even try it. If you might be embarrassed in front of others you shouldn’t give something a go. Family lines, cultural influences and things about shape this false perception that perfection is a must.
That care free girl that would happily jump in a cardboard box on the back of someones bike to see what going over that bump at the bottom of a hill would be like, suddenly no longer wants to try such things. Actually to be fair that is likely wise, I ended up rather scraped and bruised up. The girl that use to love singing and dancing freely no matter where or when was quietened.
I recall being so embarrassed about something in my teens that I just wanted to run away and couldn’t wait till we would again be on the move. Now I know people looking in wouldn’t have had any idea of my grapple with perfectionism but it was rampant and sucked so much fun out of being and doing. I cared far too much about things that simply didn’t matter.
As I’ve studied God’s Word at the in depth bible study I’ve been in awe of all that God has re-shaped and tended to. On Friday we kicked off the new study, Acts. I was helping a leader deal with a situation in the space her group would be meeting and in doing so my pants were staticky and clinging. I dashed to the bathroom to try and shake it out, to no avail. I went and got some moisturiser but nope, not that either. I called out for one of my lovely co-leaders to come grab them and put them in the freezer for 30 seconds while I waited in the cubicle. Once I had them on again I dashed up the front and kicked off the time, a few minutes late and a wee bit puffed and not on best form.
Years ago I would have been so embarrassed, felt like I’d let people down but now I just laugh and roll with it. Life is fun, messy, unknown, to be adapted with. When I think of all I’m learning in God’s Word I can’t help but smile at how far I’ve come. To think back to the box I put myself in, the things I missed out on, situations I overthought and how one step at a time through all the studies Isaiah, Acts, Genesis, Matthew, Life of Moses, Revelation, John, Romans, People of the Promised Land part one and now a re-look at Acts just what God has and is shifting that I may say goodbye to perfection and hello to acceptance, joy, growth, adventure and more.
I wonder what things have you stuck in a box and missing out? And I wonder if you would love to do something about changing that? If you do can I encourage you to seek God, turn to His Word where you will find a road map filled with stepping stones to better.
I’ve had people query the study I’m part of…it’s called Bible Study Fellowship and it’s global, online, even an app version called Word Go. But there are also countless other studies and ways to become God’s beautiful work in progress and begin to flourish in His unstoppable Word, Love, Purpose.